on kenyan soil

KENYA
No Borders Online

is done! and online soon.
three sleeps til I fly south

remembered objects
mzee statue, black painted wood
bottle of water by the bed, chickenpox thirst
sweet milky tea, cooled from mug to pan
and back

Today Kenya has muscle pain, from fighting. We are tired

they say

people should move back to their ancestral homes

if only I thought I was a state
a country, bigger than I am
or much much smaller

Now and then winter reaches across and reminds me
that this was always meant as a joke,
an alternative to Bougainvillea
and banana trees, laden
and alleys in Mombasa that we knew we shouldn’t take a chance down but it was so hot and we were too tired to go the long way.

Incongruous, those years.
The equator and knitting needles. Long afternoons and evenings spent waiting to grow up and leave, which I must have known would happen eventually.

Here I am, years later, in a sodden land, collecting warm lyrics,
mountains of images, to clog up my arteries
I used to watch the sky
Now I watch the screen
And houses with window ledges where Siamese cats lounge
like zebras in savannahs.

Sit in crowed cafes, Balkan beats blaring
The semi dirty glasses
The angle of the rain falling
My feet locked to each other like tongs
Under the chair